Following My Dreams

Okay non-existent blog followers,

First of all, I would like to address that I secretly like that nobody reads this. If I wanted people to read this I would tell them to. I have told nobody about this blog (yet). If someone is reading this then it's probably sent from the Gods that you are supposed to read this because you had to have stumbled upon it.

I am going to go for it. I have ALWAYS wanted to be a singer. ALWAYS. For so long I've been telling myself it's hard, and not practical, it's just for fun...etc. I think the core reason why I haven't chased my dream is that I still care too much about what people think of me. I am going to finally go after my dream of singing. I have this talent and I love it more than anything. I am going to work my hardest and give it all I have until it's enough. It scares me how much of a long road I have to go until I make it to where I want to be. Knowing me, I can do it. I've never wanted something more (except when I was little and wanted to be a mermaid). If I were to work to be a musician, I wouldn't work a day in my life. Because it is something I love with all my heart. So if you are reading this, say a little prayer for me that I will make it and make sure to buy my music when it comes out.

Lauren

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This is a new channel from when I posted this Blog post, so it only has two covers on it. However, stay tuned and I am going to build it up this summer.

Life is sooo Hard sometimes

I just finished my last final however, this semester... wow what a semester. I lost my good friend Erik to cancer, got mono and pneumonia. THIS SEMESTER WAS SO HARD FOR ME. I feel like I've been beaten down and stomped on by college. On top of that I'm not 100% sure about my major. I also had a teacher accuse me of cheating, which I didn't do, so for two weeks I was on trial with her until she realized the truth that I didn't do it. She threatened to fail me (she didn't in the end).

On top of those bad things there were a lot of good things as well though, don't get me wrong my life is still amazing. I traveled to New York City and California, a tweet of mine went viral, I made the front page of my local newspaper, started writing more songs, did President's Cabinet at USU, made Blue Crew for next year at USU, met Jimmy Fallon, saw 3 broadway shows, made a lot of new friends (lost a lot of friends), performed in front of thousands of people, was awarded hardest worker for my division in Presidnt's Cabinet, moved to a higher up position at my job, gained a lot more confidence and respect for myself... Honestly my life is a whirlwind.

The truth is I think I grew more in this semester than people normally do in 10. I was put in the refiners fire, which means God is probably preparing me for something big. I know this post seems more like a journal entry but I felt like I needed to put this on my blog for some reason. I don't think anyone will even read this, so maybe it's more for me.

It's summer now, as of today. My goals for this summer are to focus on getting myself completely better from all this crap in my system leftover from mono and pneumonia, focus on my music, take it easy and not overwork. I would love to pursue music more than anything right now, maybe that's just me being sick of school, but I can't wait to see where it takes me.

Lauren K. Morrill

Equality

     Men and Women are equal. They are different obviously but that doesn't mean one gender is more important than the other. Both men and women  have noses, eyes, legs... well most of them. That seems pretty trivial, but so does the thought of men and women even being treated differently. WHY are women still getting paid less than men working at the same job? (Link). I wish I had an answer, however my opinion is that of most other women in the world, and most men. Women and men should have equal rights, one gender is not better than the other. Different but equal.

Graduation

     My sister, Brooke graduated from UVU with a bachelors degree in photography 3 days ago. I couldn't be more proud. I was literally the person crying in the audience. She is a big role model in my life. She transferred to 4 different colleges, changed her major like 10 times, and she did it. She never gave up hope. She is eight and a half years older than me, I know we look like twins. Love you, Brooke! 

Future Plans

     As a college student, others plan out our futures for us. It sounds a little like a check list:

1. Date
2. Do service for an organization (or religious missions)
3. Get married
4. Get a degree
5. Get a job
6. Start a family


This whole concept scares me to death. I just want to do my own thing and stay young like Peter Pan forever. Honestly what is wrong with that? Nothing. I've accepted that it is perfectly fine to go at my own pace, and disappointing my aunts at family reunions is fine. So what if I change my major 5 times? So what if I have to retake a class? If I mess up so many times, at least I will know without a doubt which way is the best way for me. Choosing the road less traveled by makes all the difference (Robert Frost).

Nick, Justin, Paisley, Eric, Karen

Suicide is sad and real and I just learned last weekend of another friend taking their own life. It is such a taboo topic but when it happens it leaves a monstrous cavity in everyone's lives. I've had too many friends taken by it! Please please PLEASE if you need help, reach out to someone! I know it seems dark and like the end, but if you just wait a while longer I PROMISE the sun will shine again.

You are loved

You are needed

You matter

You and your future are worth the fight.

Where you are now is not where you will be forever. Just remember that.